Eat.
Just fucking eat.
That’s what they say
That’s what they all say
Just get some fucking sleep
Sleep… great idea….
if only that idea agreed with me
but it never does.
The silence…
It’s too loud to let me sleep.
The walking away,
the giving up..
I can’t chew on that.
I can’t swallow rejection
and expect it to fill me
with anything other than
the taste of my own
self loathing.
The breaking,
it doesn’t taste good.
It splits my taste buds,
strips me raw
of everything I thought I knew
and I’m empty
with the reality of knowing
I wasn’t worth staying whole.
I was only the time
of pieces fucked empty
and that
is how I will stay.
Because the silence
just inside the emptiness
of what was
fills me with just enough hope
that maybe
you’ll realize
I was worth a little bit more.
But my heart..
it breaks and laughs
and tells me
I’m only a whore
who was good enough
for the secrets
fucked inside.
And still I say,
I love you.
Because I hate myself
just enough
to keep fucking my own heart
deeper into ruin.
-Stephanie Bennett-Henry
#stephaniebennetthenry
Damn, girl. So fucking raw I feel it. ♥♥♥
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❤️❤️❤️ Thank you.
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To be blinded by another’s blindness,
Unable, then, to see the worth
They could not, would not see,
Darkest evaluation confirmed,
Is a fate I read of and long to see overturned.
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Reblogged this on cabbagesandkings524 and commented:
Stephanie Bennett-Henry – Rejection leaves deep wounds.
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This is so vulnerable and soul-baring… I admire you for writing it!
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Thank you ❤️
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You’re welcome. I’m a fan of yours. ❤ And an ear.
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Devastating…finely written..I feel you ❤
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