Because it’s not easy
Because I thought I could
but changed my mind
when my words turned
into a paralysis of
permanent knots
that couldn’t be untied.
Because it was so simple
Because it never was to me
Because my heartstrings
are strangling my fight
and there’s a white flag
somewhere that is begging
to feel the wind
but it never will, it never will.
Because the peace gets shredded
before it can fly
Because I am the shredded cloth
of what could have been
Because I am too honest
in a world that favors
how pretty a lie can be decorated
and feathers turn to shit
so easily, I am sickened
with all the wicked places here.
Because I don’t know how to wage war
against the battle that follows
Because I shouldn’t have to
Because this is your mess
and I don’t know why
I’m still on my knees cleaning it up.
Stephanie Bennett-Henry © 2016
A super lovely, powerfully voiced poem. I particularly liked:
“into a paralysis of
permanent knots
that couldn’t be untied. “
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Thank you ❤️
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No honey…do not put yourself through this. He has problems he needs to deal with. I tried to get him help. He is narcissistic liar. Thankful you are good. If you ever need a friend I am here. I have nothing but love for him. I’m not the person he portrays me to be. I was stupid for falling for him. That’s my problem to deal with. You hold that head high and be that strong person I see. ❤
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